Life is like a mirage..

• Optimistic and freedom-loving
• Jovial and good-humored
• Honest and straightforward
• Intellectual and philosophical
• Blindly optimistic and careless
• Irresponsible and superficial
• Tactless and restless

Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy travelling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed.

Their strongly idealistic natures can also suffer many disappointments without being affected. They are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice. They are usually on the side of the underdog in society they will fight for any cause they believe to be just, and are prepared to be rebellious.

They balance loyalty with independence.Sagittarians are usually modest and are often religious, with a strong sense of morality, though they tend to overemphasize the ethical codes they follow and worship beliefs about God rather than God Himself. This means that, negatively, they regard rigid, unloving, intolerant adherence to ritual and conventional codes as more important than the truths they symbolize or embody.

They sometimes pay lip service to religions and political parties in which they have ceased to believe because the outward forms satisfy them, yet they may not hesitate to switch allegiance in politics or change their system of belief if they see personal advantage to themselves in doing so.

They have both profound and widely ranging minds, equipped with foresight and good judgement, and they can be witty conversationalists. They love to initiate new projects (they make excellent researchers) and have an urge to understand conceptions that are new to them. they think rapidly, are intuitive and often original, but are better at adapting than inventing and are at their best when working with colleagues of other types of character that compliment their own.

They are strong-willed and good at organizing, a combination that gives them the ability to bring any project they undertake to a successful conclusion. Their generosity can be balanced by their extreme care at handling their resources.Sagittarians are ardent, sincere and straightforward in love, normally conventional and in control of their sexual natures. Yet if thwarted, they may easily allow their failure to embitter their whole lives or they may revenge themselves upon the opposite sex by becoming cynically promiscuous.

They are more apt then the average to make an uncongenial alliance. If their marriages are successful, they will be faithful spouses and indulgent parents; but their innate restlessness will inspire them to use even the most satisfying ménage as a base from which to set out on their travels. They need to fell free and are often faced with the choice of allowing their careers to take over their lives at the expense of the love of their spouse and family.

Sagittarian women are the counterparts of their men; even if they have no career to rival their love, they find it difficult to express affection and may run the risk of being thought frigid.In other personal relationships they are reliable, seldom betraying any trust given to them. They can, however, be impulsively angry and both male and female Sagittarians know how to be outspoken and exactly what expressions will hurt their adversaries most. On the other hand they are magnanimous in forgiving offenses and are responsible when looking after the elderly in the family.

Their gifts fit Sagittarians for a number of widely differing professions. They are natural teachers and philosophers with a talent for expounding the moral principles and laws which seem to explain the universe. This gift enables them to be successful churchmen on the one hand and scientists on the other. The law and politics also suit them, as does public service, social administration, public relations and advertising.

Travel and exploration naturally appeal to such restless souls and, if their opportunities are limited, they may find something of travel and change of scene in the armed forces or through working as a travelling salesman. Others may make fine musicians and, in the days before automobiles, they were said to be successful at horse trading and all activities, including sporting ones, concerning horses. This has been translated in modern terms into an interest in cars and aircraft - and again with emphasis on the sporting side racing, rallying etc. They are said to make good sports coaches, but their tastes in this direction may lead them into imprudent gambling, though the gambling instinct may be sublimated by carrying it out professionally as a bookmaker.

The vices to which Sagittarians are prone are anger they tend to flare up over trifles; impatience - they want to rush every new project through immediately and demand too much of colleagues who cannot work at the pace they require; and scorn of the inadequacies of others while expecting fulsome recognition of their own efforts. They may in one sense deserve recognition, because in completing a major project they will sacrifice their health and family relationships; in their family’s eyes they may merit condemnation.They can be exacting, domineering and inconsiderate in the work place; and boastful, vulgar and extravagant in their private lives.

Their restlessness, if excessive, can jeopardize more than their own stability. some Sagittarians risk becoming playboys, wasting their lives away in frivolous pursuits. Others can develop a moralizing, religious fanaticism or else turn into hypocrites, their inner prudishness disguised by an outward appearance of joviality. Another side of the religiosity which is a danger in Sagittarians is superstition.

Sagittarius governs the hips, thighs and sacral area; subjects suffer from ailments of the hips and thighs and are liable to sciatica and rheumatism. An alleged deficiency of silicon in their physiques can give them poor skin, nails and hair.As they are often sportsmen indulging in dangerous pursuits, they are prone to accidents which arise from these the ancient astrologers mention falls from horses and hurts from them and other four-footed beasts. The taking of risks in other sports is a danger to the modern Sagittarian, and he is also liable to accidents with fire and heat.

Taken from http://www.vangelis.com.au/12signs.asp

Haha it’s been sometime since i post something coz i’ve been busy enjoying my life hehee. Here are a short summary of thing’s i’ve done in few weeks ago…

• Went jogging with mei nart.. end up soak coz she pour water on me >.<
• Cooked a big pot of ABC soup which my hmates disagree.. they say its tomato soup, think i put too much tomato puree hahaha.. but its nice rite? ^^
• Went shopping and shopping hahaha.. bought a lot of things and really enjoyed myself..
• Had buffet at The Chicken Buffet in TimeSquare.. ahh very full.. hope can go there again someday..
• Visited some old frens, ahh Chia i miss ya!! ^^
• Booked air tickets for end year holiday and Chinese NY.. hapi hapi hehehe..
• Burning cds of animes for my bro.. piracy rocks man!
• DOTA, DOTA and more DOTAs… hahaha
• Washed tonnes of laundry..
• Study a bit..
• Slacking.. and slack more.. thinks that cover around 75% of my times hahaha..

Now for the things that i should do.. let see..

• Get computer stuffs.. any fren willing accompany me to The Mines? or Low Yat? >.<
• Settle industrial training documents..
• Buy a book, The Children of Hurin by J.R.R. Tolkien
• Pack stuffs.. going back soon yuhooo~~
• Buy some gifts for family hehhee.. see i so nice hor ^^
• Again more laundries.. sighz
• Cleanup room.. got ppl gonna stay at my room during holiday
• Finding home based part time job.. i need $_$
• Spend lots and lots of quality times with my family.. love them very much! ^^
• More jogging~~
• Draw mangas..
• Slack more~

I think that sum up about everything i need to do during this coming holiday.. Of coz i got a somemore personal things which i didnt mention that i also have to do. Nevertheless i can forsee that this holiday will be the greatest of all~

Signing off ~

TRUST
TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to   suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity   may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She  repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady’s voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband’s pocket but I do not know whose number it is."

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if  the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"
The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than
you."

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive others, others will ignore our mistake too.

CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my
leisure hour, if I don’t go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person’s character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations. .

RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It’s like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man’s meat could be another man’s poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy’s hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy’s hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I’m sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"
The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can’t. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

by Otsuka Ai

I’d always stumble around like this, so…
I’d always get left behind like this
You’ve changed, you’ve really changed
Someone who looks to blame their own faults on others
A weak person, a sad, lonely person

Back then our world was a bubble,
Without a cloud in the sky…
On the surface, everything seemed so pure and straightforward
The feelings we had would burst that world apart…
Naively, we’d become too consumed with trying to know "love"
Stumbling about, we’d hurt each other and our world would vanished

Did you ever wonder if we really loved each other?
Although it’s too late to be thinking about that now…
Things are different now, very different
Even good memories are burnt away
It’s a shame, a real pity

Back then our world was a bubble,
Without a cloud in the sky…
No matter what, everything seemed like it was new
Nowadays, it’s always cloudy…
I can’t even see the sun anymore, I have nothing more to say
Just look out for each other, and someday our worries will vanished

Back then our world was a bubble,
Without a cloud in the sky…
We used to always understand each other’s feelings
The feelings we had would burst that world apart…
But without words, our feelings slipped past each other
Stumbling about, we’d hurt each other and our world would vanished

Today it ended.. finally i got answer from him.. all my puzzles are solved.. i just realized the word "Love" he always mentioned are so shallow and fragile.. but no matter what it is, it ended.. The End.. and i choose to to end everything than to remain friends.. maybe u all might think i’m immatured.. but i see it as the best way to heal wounds.. either for me or him.. let time heal everything..

Goodbye…

Instructions for Life

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involved great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lessons.
3. Follow the three R’s:
   1. Respect for self
   2. Respect for others and,
   3. Responsibility for all your actions
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend sometime alone everyday.
9. Open arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in you home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page only.

St. Augustine

Ah.. sitting infront com enjoying a warm glass of Milo and Oreo biscuits, listening to soul soothing music is really satisfying, especially after long hours of revision. This is life.. hehehe.. i like it ^^

It all started when Doris entered my room with a thick book and some notes and lie down on my bed. Then we started to chat, do some revision and finally chase around each other at living room with me calling her as HONEY~~~ hahaha.. It really freak her out and she starts to runs away, run to upstairs and guess what, i have another darling there wahahahhaa.. Life’s so wonderful when we have frens around us. Its good to have my frens back, and also my appetite hahaha.. Missed the "yuan yang" i had that day with Doris and Amy, and i can finally finished it wahahahhaa…

Exam coming soon on 17th Apr, hmm i’ve targeted a few subjects that i can score well. Wished this semester result will be lot better than last time, yeah i’m sure it will hehehe.. Jia you Jia you ah!

After exam it’ll be time to go back home ^^ Breaking news guys, Chia’s getting married on 12th May in Sarikei and 24th May in Puchong!!! Still remember last time we always bet who will get married first and you gals always say me de, who knows now its Chia first hahaz. Chia, wish you all the best and appreciate what u have ah! *HUGZ* Hmm.. anyway i still dunno what to get her. Frens if you are reading this blog and interested to share gift with me please gimme a msg ^^

Hmm almost finished my Milo liao, time to do somemore revision and then head to my cozy bed hehee.. Tmr Doris (my personal alarm clock ^^) will wake me at 8am hahaz, then resume our revision.. Gonna miss her when i go back hometown, too bad she wun miss me hahaz.. Quote of what she said to me, "nope wun miss you, see you everyday already, at school, at home, everywhere also see you, buay tahan liao, go back dun wanna see you liao" LOLZ.. funny gal hahaa…

Time for panda bear to sign off now >.< Nite nite all ^^

I admit i still cannot get over it. I felt like a hypocrite as all my actions contradict with what i wrote in previous post. I despised myself for being so weak. I still cannot accept the reality it ended like this, or has it ended already? I seek for truths and explanations from him, post mortem of the relationship, what triggered it until we come to this path? There’s a lot of questions in my mind, the past shadows still haunt me making me unable to move on properly. I’m very confused, in dilemma.

Hope one day when all puzzles are solved, may my heart be set free…

but in love i lost my faith, once is enough…

Hmm.. improvements, for better or worse? Lets start with what i should improve.

1. Studies - I’m a slacker >.< *old habit die hard.. piak!*

2. Appearance - Need some work *ok am i fat? >.<*

3. Social - Need to talk more than usual *still i prefer to listen wor*

4. Goals of life - *leave blank..*

5. Personality - hmmm… should i change? T_T *maybe a little*

It seems i does have a lot to improve… just a few days ago being scold by my jie because of poor command of English. Time to read more books i guess X_X…

In less than 1 mth i can finally go home le~ YAY ^^. Missed my family so much! Home is always the place we seek when we are most unhappy as deep inside we know they are the one who love us the most and will 100% stand behind us in whatever we do. HOME SWEET HOME ^^ hehe.. Go home and be piggy hehehe…

Its been around 1 year since i post a blog hehe. Exams is around the corner and i’ve been more hardworking than last time wahahaha.. Today Doris (my ex-roomate, coursemate and also housmate >.<) was surprised to hear something that she never thought i’d say hehe.. I invited her to go library ^^; i woke up ard 12 pm and housemate already tapau for me liao. Looking at the tapau rice i can only finished half of it and the other half have to throw away. Sighz.. its a waste i know but my appetite has decreased alot lately. So after we finished lunch we went to library. Did study a little, feeling sleepy also haha. Then we went to Bintang to grab some groceries items. After that we had our dinner there and tapau for some of our housemates. Reached home le same as usual i stick to my com hehe. Played some games, chat some, and surf some.

During all this normal days, sometimes when i’m a little free, the times before i sleep or when i just wake up, my mind will start to wonder.. What actually is love? I always believe true love are the one that have overcomed a lot obstacles, and even though clouded with fear and uncertainties, they fight through it and survived. But some told me, if you feel something is wrong in the relationship, its best to quickly pull yourself out of it to prevent things from getting worst. Maybe they are right and i admit i’m still naive in relationships.

Love is something very beautiful at first, sweet and full with hopes, as if with feelings everything can be overcomed if we are together, but when it ended it is cruel and full of sorrow, sadness, disappointments and broken hearts. Breakups is like thousand needles strike through our defenceless heart and it pains, really pains, for days, months and some years. Neverthelss, no matter what it is, i realize if we love someone, the best way is to let him/her go, and in the same time set ourselves free from misery. Someone told me before, happiness or sadness it is our choice, and now i choose to be happy.

I’ll always bear in mind, that failures is the mother of success. As long as i’ve learned my mistakes and in the same way make sure it will not repeat again, the failure is worth it. Life is short, and there’s a lot of things i wanted to do. Right now, my short goal is to study hard and get good results. As for my future all i can do is leave it to God and pray for the best. Thanks alot for all the frens that supported me through the hard times. Really love u all *muacks!*

OK think its time for me to retire to my bed. Time really flies.. Nitez!